Agaricus muscarius
Agaricus rejects to act in harmony with his inner relative feeling of the Good and thereby to develop and purify that feeling. He tries instead to act out of his intellectual notion of absolute Goodness. However, as he isn't absolutely Good and he rejects to employ and purify his relative feeling of the Good, his actions turn out to be in discord with his inner relative feeling of the Good.
This discord is balanced by involuntarily external actions, which is in discord with his inner intentions and is manifested, to begin with, primarily in the physical organs being instrumental in this process, in the nervous system. He acts out of his intellectual notion of absolute Goodness and suppresses his own relative feeling for the Good.
He makes claim of the Good deed. He rejects just to be motivated to act by something external, including by his fellow human beings, provided that this external in itself doesn't reflect the Good. He rejects being obliged to do the relatively 'good and right' thing, when he isn't convinced that it would be the absolutely Good thing to do, even if he recognises, that it considered from an external angel, probably would be 'the good and right thing' to do.
Agaricus would like to be a Good person, but finds this very difficult in a world where people, whom doesn't always do the Good, surround him. Instead of 'removing the balk from his own eye, so that he can see and help others in removing the splinter from their eye', which would be the Good, he focuses on the 'splinter' (T59), the imperfect Goodness of the others, and tries to reform them by means of the 'strong-arm method'. He rejects to do the Good thing to others, if the others don't do the Good thing themselves. However, in this way he involuntarily makes common cause with the evil, even if it was the opposite he wanted to achieve.
Transcendental
An action motivated by wanting the innermost Truth, done out of the innermost will without thought of external reward, can start to set something inside of man in motion, which until then has been quiet and immovable. Only then man commences his internal life, to realize his potential and thereby enlighten his inner darkness.
However, before man can awaken his interior, he must partly cognite the Truth in a knowledge about that possibility which man first must receive from without himself, partly he must mobilise a will which come together with that knowledge and unites that knowledge with himself, by seeing the Good of that knowledge, its value.
No sum of external scholarship can provide this result; only internal action provides this possibility for development and it's precisely this internal action, which Agaricus prevents himself in undertaking, by making external and self-contradictory conditions for his internal action.
Goodness is the harmony of action and as it is the very ability to act which Agaricus blocks for with a condition, which in itself is in contradiction with the Good, there will be a lot of discord to balance for, precisely there.
The hand symbolises Force. Right hand represents the force of action and in this way the force to do Good. Left hand is dominated by selfishness and represents the evil. This I why it's the left hand we must keep in the dark as to what the right hand do of the Good, and not the other way around. This is to be quiet in oneself and illustrates the proving-symptom in Theme 28: '- Going to sleep of the left hand when leading a little boy during a walk'.
Conditions
Agaricus hesitates to do the Good, as long as he intellectually doesn't cognite that which he himself feels or receives from without, as the Good, because he thinks it would be wrong to reward it with such an act. But in that way he fails to see, that it is the very nature of the Good to do the Good, exactly because it is Good in itself, independently of what anybody else is doing and regardless of what passed on in advance. That precondition which he intellectually set up for doing the Good, is in itself in sharp conflict with the Good and in this way he chains himself to a self-created and self-perpetuating dilemma.
Inner focus
All the time Agaricus focuses intellectually on, if what he is doing really is genuinely of the Good, or if he yields to his own relative emotions or impure expectations of others. He focuses on the lacking Goodness in every thing and incident on his way. He therefore sees them as a threat, as a possible trap or pitfall, which could tempt him to act on their impure basis.
His other focus is directed toward the disturbed relationship with his surroundings, especially with his fellow humans. Agaricus wants to act on an untainted foundation of the Good and do not want to act out of experiences which others have done on a contaminated groundwork.
That results in a disturbed and ambivalent relationship with his fellow humans and manifests itself in problems with the abilities necessary for communication with the others, in speech, reading and writing. The disturbance in the ability to love belongs to this problem. Love implies passivity, i.e. the ability to let oneself be attracted and moved by something outside of oneself. However, his notorious suspicion prevents him from being passively attracted, as Agaricus rejects to let him be attracted by something, unless it consists of the Good.
In the Egotrophic phase, his inner attention is focussed on his own Good deeds, in the Secondary Psoric phase, on how difficult it is to do the Good with all those temptations around him, in the Egolytic phase, on his own foolish kindness, powerlessness and impotence, and in the Alterolytic phase, the world seems evil, the maliciousness of the others paralyses him and he himself is to Good for this world.
Guilt
Agaricus makes claim on the ability to act out of the absolute Good, the Good deed. He rejects to let himself be motivated to act out of anything relatively good, including his own relative emotions as well as his fellow humans, unless they clearly reflects the absolute Goodness. He rejects the human possible relative good motivation to an action, because it isn't absolutely Good.
Loss
Agaricus looses the ability to purify his interior by means of acting in accordance with his interior. He looses the ability to act in harmony with his inner potential for relative human goodness, as foundation for his actions and thus the control of his actions.
Intellectually he isn't able to find the right words, the ability to think is disturbed, intellectual effort becomes impossible and eventually he can neither read nor write. As he rejects to let his will be motivated by his relative interior, he cannot achieve his goals and in its place he feels subdued to what he consumes from without. The senses are weakened, he isn't able to focus on the external, the hearing is impaired, and his perception of the surroundings is very dull. The evaluation of what the senses perceive from without is lacking in proportion, e.g. 'Perception of relative size of objects is lost, takes long steps and jumps over small objects as if they were trunks of trees – a small hole appears as a frightful chasm, a spoonful of water an immense lake'.
His body appears smaller to him, he totters and stumbles over the slightest obstacle, the comical gait makes him bump into others, he tosses about, dancing and making involuntary grimaces and strange faces. Involuntary urination. He looses the contact to his external surroundings, looses the desire to work and is only occupied with himself and his condition.
Punishment
Agaricus fears the evil and thus everything that can be interpreted as a plot against the foundation for his good deeds. Consequently he fears every disturbance, any approach from others, any disease, change or noise, which could be interpreted as an obstacle for his opportunity to do the Good. He fears that the increasing paralysis of his ability to act will be total in a world, which doesn't whish him well.
Longing
Agaricus longs for a world that only wants the Good, where he can act in accordance with his interior.
Justification
When Agaricus rejects to do what he is asked for by the others, he justifies his lacking action on the ground that it would be to do them a disservice, when he can see that the motive behind their request isn't solely of the Good, and he does not want to act on a impure basis.
Main themes
The most important thing for Agaricus is that the motive to his actions is all to the Good, that his motivation was to do Good deeds. That is the primary thing for him, as opposed to the result, if he succeeds in this is naturally also important for him, but it's secondarily. Physically the discord is at first manifested as functional disturbances primarily of his motor functions and in the physical organs which is instrumental in bringing the action about, e.g. the nervous system. However, sooner or later the rejection of the relative goodness will be manifested in the heart and circulation.
Themes
- Reflection. 2. Been on a journey. 3. Ideas, pictures. 4. Debauched imaginations. 5. The gate to hell. 6. Disclose secrets. 7. Done one's duty. 8. One's children. 9. Laughter. 10. Can't find the right word. 11. Sighing. 12. To answer. 13. Speech. 14. Jaw. 15. Increased strength. 16. Use of the will. 17. Anger, rage and revenge. 18. Officer. 19. The mushroom commands. 20. Fascination with death, dying, the after-life. 21. Wilful, headstrong. 22. Easily offended. 23. Other people. 24. Oneself. 25. Noise. 26. Restlessness. 27. Achieve the goal. 28. Going to sleep of the left hand when leading a little boy during a walk. 29. Work. 30. Write. 31. Read. 32. Vertigo. 33. Move the head. 34. Cover the head. 35. Head enlarged and full. 36. Facial muscles. 37. Attention. 38. Vision. 39. Floating spots before the eyes. 40. Light. 41. Open the eyes. 42. Focus. 43. Tics, twitches around eyes. 44. Eyes too big. 45. Smell and taste. 46. Sensationsю in the nose. 47. Hearing. 48. Palpitation. 49. Pressing and anxiety in the chest. 50. Globular expectoration. 51. Saliva. 52. Appetite. Nausea, anxiety and pain in abdomen. 53. As if abdomen was empty. 54. Urethra, urging and urine. 55. Sex. 56. Exertion and perspiration after sex. 57. Splinter, peg, needle. 58. Pain as from a gunshot wound at left last true rib. 59. Sensation of coldness, frozen stiff. 60. The sensation as if a part were touched with a piece of ice, or by mercury. 61. Sensation of burning. 62. The hands are rubbed together, as if rolling something soft into a ball between them. 63. Sensation as of electric shocks. 64. Quivering, twitching, involuntary motions and jerks of single muscles to a dancing of the whole body. 65. Dancing. 66. Spine. 67. Tired, sleepy, powerless. 68. The body is fading away. 69. As if heads of thighbones were pulled from their sockets. 70. Motion, walk. 71. Unsteadiness of the legs. 72. Weight, load, burden. 73. Weakness of muscles.
Secondary psora
The Secondary Psoric Agaricus is basically a relatively good human being, who does everything within his power to be good to others and is very helpful. However, as everybody else in the Secondary Psora, he has a 'deficit-complex', which form the background to his suffering.
In the Secondary Psora, Agaricus is still painfully aware, that even if his motive is good as a goal considered, he still hasn't reached that goal and that's exactly what's tormenting him. Even if he still hopes to achieve that goal, he easily despairs at how difficult that is, and that doubt marks all of his actions. Consequently the Primary Modalities will be any attempt of 'good deeds' and anything else, which can symbolise the same, as this reminds him of his inability on that point.
The symptom in the Secondary Psora will thus be a distinctive aggravation from- and aversion to everything that reminds him of that 'deficit-complex'. Even the physiological functions, which naturally accompany such actions, such as motion, perspiration, increased respiration, and pulse, is sufficient to trigger the Primary Psoric anxiety.
Consequently, he will suffer from how difficult it is in reality, to act in accordance with one's Good intentions. All the many temptations that are difficult to see through, make him irresolute, hesitating, and weaken his power of action. He suffers from the expectorations of others. Actually he would like to do what they expect of him, but he thinks a lot about if the motive for doing as they expect, really is Good. If he feels that they have impure motives, he easily suspects them for attempting to exploit him and he is very touchy (T22), as the least criticism add fuel to the flames of his Primary Psoric anxiety, that his motives to all what he does isn't Good enough. He is restless, unstable, and doesn't feel comfortable among other people.
Egotrophy
In the repetition of the sin, Agaricus demonstrates that he masters 'absolute action by means of Goodness as motive'. He attempts to convince both himself and others, that his impressive reputation for good deeds and drive solely is due to the fact that he wants the Good. He makes a great fuss about doing everything possible to be there for others and is very helpful. He is one of the best, a brick, and a good friend whom always is there when someone needs help.
However, there is a disparity between how much good he wants to do and then his consciousness about, or ability to see through his own motives behind this. So actually he's too good to be true, when compared with how vulnerable he is to disappointments, if others doesn't show gratitude enough for all he has done or doesn't notice his goodness. This selective vulnerability unveils however, that his motive for the 'good deeds' can't just have been the Good, as he then wouldn't have had any reasons to be hurt by it.
His Primary Psoric rejection and with it his Loss, is the relatively good motivation to action, because it isn't good enough for the claim on action by means of Goodness as motive. Even if he isn't consciously aware of this rejection any more and now projects it on his surroundings, the rejected human possible goodness is lacking as motive behind his actions, as he isn't really as absolute Good, as he now pretends to act out of. In this vacuum something creeps up, a hidden agenda from his subconsciousness.
This vacuum in itself triggers his Primary Psoric anxiety, with a legitimate, but from without as well as from the point of view of the consciousness, groundless feeling of that his actions isn't sufficiently motivated in the Good. New 'Good deeds' and anything else that can symbolise the same, now calms the Primary Psoric anxiety of Agaricus and thus functions as a Primary Modality.
The effect of this in the Egotrophic phase is a distinct desire, but only a temporary amelioration. E.g. now the physiological functions natural for an act, such as motion, perspiration, increased respiration and pulse, have a calming effect and provide amelioration. However there is always a remainder of internal doubt, which come up again and troubles him.
It's this troubling feeling, or 'Primary Psoric anxiety', which disturbs his peace of mind and maintain the need for relief. It's this need of new confirmations, which creeps up into the vacuum between the rejected relative good and the unattainable absolute Good motive to the actions of Agaricus and provides the hidden agenda from the subconsciousness, behind his many 'good deeds'.
The characteristic and striking about the Egotrophic Agaricus is that his actions origin more from his brain than his heart, together with the need for external confirmations that he acts out of the Good. There is something compulsory about his actions, something out of proportion with the nature of the Good, which makes it striking how important his external actions are to him and how important it is to him with external appreciation, praise, and references to how Good his actions are.
In the compensation for the loss of the relatively good motive to act, he masks the need for external appreciation, praise, and references to how Good his actions are, by treating others with remarkable much appreciation, praise, and references to how Good their actions are.
It's his experience that others by that means also reacts positively and returns the attitude. He feels so much better when he in this way causes others to treat him with appreciation and praise, as this calms his Primary Psoric anxiety. The underplaying of his 'good deeds' is only externally and the reward is amply worth the price. Internally he feels neither passive nor egoistical, which his anger clearly demonstrates if someone takes him at his word.
Even kind admonition very easily offends him. But otherwise that's the way he gains praise and appreciation and the resulting picture, is of a person, whom on the very background of his humble appearance demonstrates an impressive power of action and Goodness.
Even the way in which he tackles his unstable nervous system, contributes to that picture. He has jerks and twitching in the hands, but that only makes him get down to it and work even harder, then they vanish. He has tics around the eyes, twitching that make grimaces all over the face and he can hardly walk or stand, but apparently he takes it very well and just jokes about it. Actually he is still afraid of thunderstorms, but in the Egotrophic phase he emphasizes in its place how nice and comfortable he is after a proper thunderstorm, it makes the air so nicely fresh and clean.
It might resemble an officer who issues orders in a peacekeeping force. His power of action and physical strength is great; he carries heavy burdens, feels light as a feather, and runs faster than everybody else. On him the physiological reactions to exertion almost have the opposite effect. Deliberate hyperventilation provides him with a feeling of pleasant tranquillity. He is cheerful and carefree, but have no need to talk with anybody. He sings and talks a lot and incoherently, but hardly answers if asked about something, or at most very abruptly.
Egolysis
It wears on the system to be on top of the situation all the time and for Agaricus it especially wears on his nervous system, which have had to work hard, as it to Agaricus where more important to control the situation with his intellect, so that his actions appeared as absolute Good, than to act in harmony with his rejected relative feeling of the Good. The nervous system of Agaricus therefore have had to participate more in the overcompensation for his disregarded feelings than the other organs and in the Egolytic phase it is so worn down, that it seriously affects his motor function as well as his brain.
In the Egolysis Agaricus gives up the hope of the ability to act by means of absolute Goodness as motive and blames the failure upon himself. His persistency in being appreciated for his good deeds, has been too much for the others and their reactions he interpret in such a way, that he now feels unwanted and he bitterly despise himself for his lack of initiative and paralysed ability to act. He feels that his innumerable actions has done more harm than Good, that he himself is evil and he associates himself as being at the gate of hell.
The choices he has made in life has as such been ok, things being as they were, but he blames himself anyway for doing what he chose to do, as he feels guilty about his motives not being good enough. In this way he experiences all the symptoms in his nervous system as a direct reflection of, that he has done wrong, and sees it as the failure of his life, that he didn't succeed in doing the Good. He consequently stops any attempts in doing the Good, as it appears hopeless to him and thus only feels as 'rubbing salt in the wound'.
Internally he is furious with himself and feels like ripping up his bowels. He consciously exposes himself to dangerous situations and assails and injures himself. His intellectual abilities are as such all right, but the brain as a tool considered fails in the execution.
He flees into an apathetic and passive condition. He only vaguely perceives the surroundings, can hardly think and have to exert himself very much in order to react on the little that sinks in from the outside. Intellectual work becomes impossible for him and he can no longer concentrate sufficiently to participate in discussions.
Previously it concerned him a great deal what others thought and felt about him, but now he couldn't care less. He has become introverted and has definite aversion to any occupation. In the Lytic phases Agaricus has definite aversion to- and are aggravated from the physiological functions natural for an action, such as motion, perspiration, increased respiration and pulse.
Alterolysis
In the phase of Alterolysis, Agaricus gives up the hope of the ability to act by means of absolute Goodness as motive and blames the failure upon the others. He has tried in a friendly way, but the others strangled his good initiatives and he hates them for that. After all what he has done for them, he deserves better, but they shall not get away with it, he will make sure that they will be sorry. He will show them that they can't treat him this way.
They will come to experience how it is to be without his Good deeds, to be paralysed in action, to be unwanted. He aims goal-directed at destructing the basis of their good deeds. He genuinely rejoices when he succeeds in hurting others and prevents them from doing the good they intended and he mocks them for their powerlessness. He is totally indifferent to the despair and pain he thereby inflict upon them, for this purpose his revengefulness is too immense.
He is indifferent about if his participation in this is revealed, as he thinks they deserve it and he would do it again given the opportunity. He ill-treats others without scruples, is violent, capricious, malicious, revengeful, maltreats, abuses and hits his children, ignores questions and throws wine, food and medicine after those who nurses him.
He tries to show them his own disappointed ambition, by constantly noticing their double standard of morality and continuously to criticise them. He has given up hope for this world with its evil and egoistical people, so he could neither dream of communicating with or do anything for them. Troublesome ideas and impulses disturbs him from falling asleep, e.g. 'he yawned frequently, and each yawn was followed by involuntary laughter, owing to a mixed sensation of happiness and misery'. His sleep is light and interrupted by anxious dreams and in the morning, on awaking, he is prostrated and confused, as after great fatigue.
The substance
Agaricus muscarius, Amanita muscaria, Fly agaric or Bug agaric, is probably the oldest hallucinogen in the world and resembles the legendary soma. In Siberia it was used as a hallucinogen drug, the Vikings used it in order to go berserk, and the Shamans utilised Agaricus for prophecy and healing-ceremonies. The effect includes hallucinations, nausea, moodiness, convulsions, diarrhoea, comatose sleep and unconsciousness. Bug agaric is toxic and the name Fly agaric origins from the praxis of crumble it into milk in order to kill the flies.
Dd
In consideration come remedies with a Primary problem with the ability to act, as e.g. Alum; Bar-act; Chin; Choc; Kali-c; Lil-t; Med; Meny; Merc; Mez; Naja; Nat-s; Nicc; Petr; Pic-ac; Sabin; Sanic; Tab; Valer; Zinc.